Quickly...

It's late and there is a buttload of snow out there and I have spent most of the night chatting and laughing (thank goodness!) with Deyse on MSN over silly Cityville which she is holding a virtual gun to my head to make me play against my will.

But...

I wanted to thank you all for the things you said.  Do I believe all of them?  I want to but things take time for me.  I have opinions of myself that are not easily changed.  And no, I don't want to be a famous actor (though it would be nice and there was a time in my life that was the only thing I wanted to be) but I did always want to do something that mattered...as a career and I'm not there.  Yes, there is still time.  I still want to write and am constantly working on that horrible little negative creature that sits on my shoulder and tells me how impossible it is.  

But...

You never know.  But again, thank you, from the bottom of my heart.  I think in light of recent events, especially at the church, I have been questioning my worth a bit maybe.  When I bust my ass for five years filling in with anything and everything that needs to be done and then have those same people I helped turn on me because I had issues with the pastor that I blogged about on a space I paid for, it is really hard not to wonder where I screwed up to allow people to feel they had the right to do those things. I'm sure that whole situation is somewhere in the mess that has been my emotions the last few weeks.

But again, thank you.  Love you all, truly.