Sleeping with Bread

I don't know if what I am going to write for tonight's SWB post really qualifies as sleeping with bread, but here goes.

Obviously, I have been all consumed with WLS once again and feeling much more confident thus far in the decision to pursue it.  I've always been the kind of person who gets an idea into her head and then can hardly think of anything else until the thought either comes to fruitation or something causes me to change my mind about it altogether.  I do worry a lot though about telling people and I don't think I'm going to tell many people.  Obviously, the friends who read here will know about it, but I would prefer for the majority of the folks at church to not know.  The main reason is simply that I firmly believe that many people do not have a real understanding of the surgery or why someone would get it.  I can say this honestly because I used to be one of those people, though I never viewed surgery as " the easy way out".  There is nothing "easy" about major surgery, possible complications and a complete change in eating for the rest of one's life.  The thing is, if you have never battled weight, you probably do have little understanding and I've been over that before on this blog so I won't rehash it now.  But I do fear people judging me for the decision who would have little to no understanding on what my life of one diet to the next has been for thirty-something years.  People who never battle weight take little things for granted that I simply cannot do, so that is what my SWB is about today.  It's a bit of a "Wish list" of things to be grateful for in the future that I can only dream about doing tonight.  What I am least grateful for is the fact that I cannot do these things now.

 

1. Being able to get on and off the floor easily.


2. Being able to breathe normally when going up a flight of stairs.


3. Being able to fit comfortably in any chair, anyplace.


4. Being able to bicycle again.


5. Having energy


6. Not having to use a CPAP in order to sleep.


7. Not having to worry about being at increased risk for certain cancers


8. Being able to feel confident


9. Not feeling like my weight is keeping me from achieving things I want to achieve


10. No longer having my ankles swell


11. Crossing my legs or even sitting cross-legged


12. Taking a bath instead of a shower


13. Sitting in a booth


14. Horseback riding


15. Being able to ride amusement park rides with my kids


16. No more knee pain


17. No more back pain


18. No more heel pain


19. Garden


20. Not feeling constantly self conscious


21. Being able to exercise without feeling like I'm dying


22. Being the person outside that I am on the inside


23. Being able to live to the full potential God has planned for me


24. Not being at increased risk for heart attacks or diabetes


25. Being comfortable in my own skin

I know I'll think of more as time goes on, but for now, that is a start.