I'm not sure how healthy this is going to be, but it has been a dose and I really need to say it here where only my readers can see it.
I don't think I'm in any immediate danger, but I am in a scary place. My eating has been bad the last two weeks. My exercise has not been what it should be. Yes, I'm getting some, but not enough and not the intensity it needs to be. I've been snacking more and not on things which I should be snacking. I've been too sedentary the last week especially; afternoons watching television instead of doing something physical. I need to improve and I need to do it now.
This is scarier now. Scarier than it ever was before surgery when I'd diet and lose a handful of pounds. Now I have made the physical changes drastically and I don't want to go backwards. Ever. EVER. I have not been back on the scale since the gain to see what is what. I know at least part of it was from my period, whichI just finished up, so I am giving my body a few days to readjust again before getting back on the scale.
I don't like this. It feels frightening and out of control. I keep telling myself it is only a bump in the road and I will work it out and get over it. But it needs to be soon. It needs to be now.
Okay, with that confession out of the way, I am putting out a call for blog help. Here's the deal. England...three weeks in June. I'm hoping Laura may help me cover in the event I miss any days. Other than that, I have a mission trip at the end of the month (June) where I will have NO computer access from June 26 to July 2nd. I would have to have some guest bloggers type up an entry this month and then I can get it in here and dated to post on one of those dates. It's a chance to give your own blog a shout out and for my readers to meet you. It is also a huge help to me! So leave me a comment if you can help out. I don't need you to post it yourself; in advance I can take care of that.
Speaking of blogging, does anyone have one of these:
Saw one in England and fell in love. It's little, it's pink, it would fit in my purse thus not making me have a carry a big ole laptop bag, and it's on my Christmas list. I'm not generally a lover of gadgets, aside from my ipod (which is also pink, btw), but this is too cute and handy and would make vacation blogging easy. If you have one, what do you think of it?
Hope you all have a great weekend!
RELAX! You didn't lose weight in 2 weeks... you won't lose total control in 2 weeks either. Just start making small changes to get back on track and give yourself a break. You've had a MAJOR shock to the system lately - and it's only natural that your body would need some time to recover.
ReplyDeleteGirl - if I worried about every thing like that I'd drive myself nuts... especially with the cravings for sugar and things that have been going along with my treatments. Just do what you can and forgive yourself.
I'm shooting you some stuff that I just wrote as a guest post for a friend of mine that I think you'll find funny. :-)
Relax - you realize what you have to do and that's over half the battle!!
ReplyDeleteJust let me know what you need blog wise and I'll help out.
I have heard good things about Acer Computers - though I've never used one. My great-nephew has a small HP laptop and I was pretty impressed with it. I think it would probably be a good buy. Check tigerdirect.com for some deals!!
Admitting you are not doing the right things is half the battle. I heard a great analogy once that said "If you get a flat tire, you don't go all the way back to where you came from, right? No, you fix the tire and continue on". It should be the same for us. Fix yourself up and move forward ;) HUGS!
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